Remember a few weeks ago when I talked about that weight loss challenge? Well, it starts today but not in the original form that I mentioned.
I tried to make this a contest. I tried involving other people and said we’d all pitch in money or services and winner take all. In light of the economy, that wasn’t the best idea and people weren’t exactly forthcoming. And besides, I realized that I was doing that, in part, to try to take the focus off me. Because as loud, obnoxious and opinionated as I am, I have a secret.
I hate being fat and I’m more ashamed of that than almost anything else.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not on the verge of an eating disorder or anything. They won’t be making After School Specials about me. But I’ve always been big, ever since I was a kid. Even when I played three sports a year and ran a sub-6 minute mile, I was still on the bigger side. And while I’ve made my peace with the fact that I’ll never be 160 lbs, I do want to get down to a manageable weight.
I should be doing this for health reasons, but I’m not. It’s purely superficial. I want to be able to take my shirt off at the beach or the pool and not have people call the Stranding Network for fear of a right whale stranding. I want to play pick up basketball games again and not have anxiety over whether I’ll be shirts or skins. But most of all, I want to play with my son and not be out of breath when he’s older.
Therefore, I’ve devised “30 By 30” in which I attempt to lose 30 lbs by my 30th birthday on August 17. That’s four months to lose 30 lbs, which I know I can do. I will weigh myself every Thursday leading up to my birthday and I’ll devote one post a week to it. I’ll go over what I’ve eaten, how many times I’ve hit the gym, how many miles I’ve run, etc. But, most importantly (and ashamedly for me) I’ll be posting pictures of myself every Thursday as well.
This is not something I’m looking forward to because I’m extremely humiliated by it. But I also know that, crazy as it may seem, I thrive on negativity when it comes to this stuff. For instance, if everyone on here tried to tell me how I don’t really need to lose weight, how they know I can do it, and they cheered me on incessantly, I’d get nowhere! But if I had some of your smartasses (and there’s a plethora of you out there!) holding my feet to the fire and giving me some shit, that’s when I get my ass into gear. And the thought of failing in front of an audience is enough to keep me on the straight and narrow too!
And if any of you want to join in, the more the merrier. Leave comments with links to your own blogs and your own attempts at weight loss. Maybe we can all help each other out.
So, without further ado, here are the dreaded before pictures and stats:
STARTING WEIGHT: 237 lbs