For five months I’ve been worrying about MJ not having a job. All I could think about was the money, making ends meet, possibly losing the house, having to borrow from generous relatives, etc. So when she got a great job (thank you Citizens Bank!!!) I was elated. I was on cloud 9. I was ecstatic.
And then, I became very aware of what her new job means.
You see, her new job is close to an hour away. That means she’ll be getting up before me. I’ll be taking care of Will in the morning which is fine, I do that anyways. But I’ll have to drop Will off at daycare three times a week. And since she won’t be home in time, I have to pick him up from daycare too. And feed him dinner. Four nights a week, MJ will be leaving the house before Will is awake and getting home an hour before he goes to bed.
I’m not complaining, it’s just that I wasn’t fully aware how accustomed I’ve become to having MJ stay at home with Will. I wasn’t shirking my responsibilities as a dad by any means, but now I’m responsible for EVERYTHING! Every day except for Tuesday (because my saintly mom volunteered to watch him for a day) he’s my responsibility and mine alone.
If you know anything about journalism, you know it’s not exactly a 9 to 5 job. Something explodes, I go. There’s a murder or a bad accident, I get called. The news doesn’t wait and it certainly doesn’t care that I have a little boy to pick up from daycare. But I have no choice anymore, Will has to be picked up and it has to be me who does it. I’ll admit, that pisses me off a little since MJ isn’t giving up any of her work time, but then again she makes much more money than I do.
It’s tough going back to the whole daycare thing. And a little sad too because it was nice having her at home with Will everyday. I really like our daycare provider and I think he’ll have a great time, but there’s no substitute for mom and dad.
It’s gonna be a shock to the system as I get used to this routine again, but it’s absolutely necessary and, like most parents, I just have to try and walk the tightrope balancing everything as I go.