The Dark Side of the Internet

My  “Confronting Life” article went viral over at the Good Men Project on Oct. 23, 2010. It currently has 775 comments and 678 people “liked” it on Facebook. It’s the most widely read piece they’ve had on the site and even today—four months exactly after it was first posted—it’s third on the “most popular articles today” list. It was featured over at Salon where it garnered more than 200 comments and 11,000 Facebook likes. And finally on YouTube, the video of me engaging the anti-choice protesters currently has 791,053 views with over 8,000 comments.

What does that all mean? It means for the last four months not a single day has passed when I haven’t gotten a comment or e-mail about what happened.

And for the most part, that’s been a good thing.

I’ve gotten hundreds—possibly thousands—of uplifting and supportive comments and e-mails from people all over the world. The ones I treasure most are the extraordinarily personal e-mails from women who said they were in similar situations and needed an abortion, but no one was there with them when protesters tore their world apart. They described how they wished they had the strength to say something at the time, and how grateful they were that someone finally did. I kept every one of those e-mails and I read them from time to time to remind myself that what I did was worth it.

I’d say 95% of the responses I’ve received have been positive, which is an overwhelming number for which I’m eternally appreciative. But I have to admit, that 5% has really pissed me off.

I knew this would garner a lot of attention, both positive and negative. So I knew I had to prepare myself to let the ignorant comments from fundamentalist Christians and pro-life zealots roll off my back. But for someone as opinionated as myself, that’s not easy. And when they’re attacking me personally, as well as my family, it gets even more difficult.

For the most part I ignored them, but sometimes they just got me so worked up I jumped back into the fray. I regretted it immediately and I know that’s exactly what they want, but these people are just so nuts. And so wrong. Here are a few examples of what I’ve been dealing with.

You didn’t HAVE to abort your dying infant. You CHOSE to. You could have tried with all of your heart to save the baby, you could have at least given it a chance. Most fathers would do anything to save their child from disaster or disease, but you and your wife decided to murder your baby without even giving it a chance at life. So what if the baby was dying, there was still some chance that it would have lived. Maybe it would have have been disabled, but it would have lived.


Even though your baby was most likely going to die you should not kill it..let life run its natural causre. And maybe with some faith and prayer your child might survive. And you wouldn’t regret later killing your child. And what those women were doing was just telling the truth..its not their fault that your baby has that disease dont yell at them.

Forget the fact that renowned doctors gave Alex a ZERO PERCENT chance at life. That she had no kidneys, no bladder and no anus. We weren’t worried about our baby being disabled, we were devastated she would not survive. People like this would have us pray for a miracle that somehow medical science will find a way to spontaneously grow vital organs for a still-developing fetus within five months. Their advice is don’t listen to the doctors, but instead I should talk to the an invisible deity in the sky and ask him for help. Riiiight. But here on Planet Earth, MJ and I knew there was no point in her carrying around a dead baby for five more months just to avoid the stigma of having an abortion. And anyone who can’t see that is dumber than rocks.

Speaking of dumber than rocks:

I don’t doubt that you and your wife had a very hard decision. But you wimped out. That child was living and didn’t deserve to die regardless of your religious beliefs, regardless of your lack of heroic virtue in caring for those who needed it most. If a thug attacked your wife and the baby miscarried due to the attack, you would have had every right to prosecute him for attacking both your wife and your unborn. It’s a double standard that you refuse to acknowledge. And you should have looked beyond the faults of local protestors to see that you and your wife compromised your values and deprived your unborn the right to exist. I find this whole charade deplorably lacking and see you as someone who is not manly enough to shoulder heroic responsibilities.

Really? You’re comparing this to a mugger attacking my wife? You’re comparing my sick child with no chance of surviving outside the womb, to someone who mugs a living person on the street? Just checking. And the part about MJ and I “compromising our values” is hysterical. Unlike most “pro-life” people, I actually do value life. But I can’t turn a blind eye to the fact that Alex had a condition incompatible with life. So instead of making the baby suffer along with my wife, we simply decided to speed up the inevitable. If anything, I look at it as an act of kindness. Was it difficult? Hell yes. But making the right choice can be hard.

This guy is not a hero, nor a winner. He’s a malicious big mouth loser.

I actually agree with some of what this person is saying. No one won in our ordeal, so I’m certainly not a winner. And I’m also not a hero. Not by any stretch. I even went out of my way to avoid the use of that word and corrected anyone who labeled me as such. And yes, I have a big mouth. But one needs that in order to properly battle back against even larger malicious losers such as yourself.

Perhaps the most vociferous commenter has been trolling my YouTube account for four solid months. He is relentlessly pro-life and unabashedly Catholic. Which is fine. I don’t agree, but to each his own. But the problem arose recently when he suddenly stopped arguing about abortion and the video, and then stated that I faked the whole incident and that I beat my wife.

These women, when confronted with an angry guy who obviously beats women but runs away when men appear, were more non-plussed than anything. They have no idea who Angry McScreamy is, doubtless because they’ve never seen him before, because he made the whole story up.

I wrote earlier that he scrams at, and beats his wife, on a regular basis, for no reason at all. I’d like to apologize for that. What I should have written was that he screams at and beats his wife on a regular basis, but when and only when she deserves it. I regret the error.

That’s when I fed the troll.

You can say a lot of bad things about me. That’s fine. But to claim I beat my wife is ridiculous. Not to mention libel, since it is totally untrue. Had those protesters been men, I would’ve confronted them the same way. Nothing would’ve changed. I never swore at those women. I kept my distance from them so they wouldn’t feel threatened. I engaged them on a public sidewalk in a nonviolent manner. But because these people have no valid argument for the despicable behavior of the protesters, they need to try to invent some kind of wrongdoing on my part to shift attention from the real issue. But it won’t work.

And as for the domestic violence allegations, all I can say to the person who made that comment is you better hope you get me in a fight and not my wife. Because you might be able to take me, but MJ will destroy your ignorant ass.

Lastly, speaking of fighting, I got this e-mail a couple of days ago from a truly idiotic man who highlights the level of moronic thought from the opposing side.

So, I saw the video where you act like a real man an attack a couple of older women protesting. Do not even ATTEMPT to claim it was out of an emotional response since you a)filmed it and b) put it on the internet. Where do you get off screaming like a lunatic at a few protesters at an abortion clinic? What did you expect at an instituion where the chief motive is to kill babies? And yes, I said babies, and if you ever saw the silent scream you would agree. I’m sorry for your loss; I couldn’t imagine how it would feel to lose a child. However, the fact that you ripped into those women and put it online makes me want to fight you, like any man walking by should have. So my proposal is a one on one, no weapons or anything dirty, me vs. you. Just squaring up and proving to you that a loud voice does not make you a man.

Where to begin with this lunatic jackass?

By his rationale, no men should ever be able to publicly challenge older females. Even though said women are standing in a public place screaming across a crowded city street. Even though they’re holding asinine signs and drawing attention to themselves. By his deluded rationale, these women should be allowed to say whatever they want without consequences, simply because of their gender and age.

Furthermore, any man who does challenge them in a nonviolent way should be pummeled by any other “good” men who might be in the area. Because violence is always the best answer.

But I agree that having a loud voice does not make one a man. Similarly, winning a fistfight doesn’t make one a man either you pathetic excuse for a human being. These women verbally accosted my wife and made her hysterical before surgery, on one of the most difficult days of our lives.

So, Mr. Tough Guy, let me ask you this: What’s more manly than standing up for your wife and defending her against the people who hurt her? Because that’s what I did. And I did it on video to show people how hurtful these protesters are, and how much damage they cause. If you want to fight me for that, well…that’s your issue. I’m not that tough, maybe you’ll even win. But that’s not going to stop me from doing the exact same thing if I’m ever in a similar situation in the future. Because I did the right thing. The necessary thing.

And none of your threats or piddly little e-mails are ever going to change that. And in the meantime, I smile as I watch the YouTube hits climb higher and higher, because it means more people are getting a first-hand glimpse at how cruel and ridiculous the people who sent these e-mails really are.

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25 thoughts on “The Dark Side of the Internet

  1. Sorry, still laughing at the thought of you “beating” MJ. She would so kick your ass…

  2. I said it then, I’ll say it now: I’m amazed by your restraint and level-headedness in the face of such vile invective.

  3. Ah, my dear friend here in LA we would educate you and your fellow boston sports fans degenerates on the proper way to school a troll. It would be an epic smack down, a beating that leads to twenty plus years of them wandering lost in obscurity. Since you are not here and are stuck in the frozen East we’ll just have to think about that and smile.

    There are certain truths that you are already well acquainted with:

    1)The Sox won the series courtesy of steroids.
    2)The tuck rule is bull shit and is just one more way the Pats have cheated their way to victory.
    3) The celtics really are one injury away from being losers who won’t get over the hump again.
    4)You fool! You fell victim to one of the classic blunders – The most famous of which is “never get involved in a land war in Asia” – but only slightly less well-known is this: “Never go against a Sicilian when death is on the line”!
    5)The trolls you are fighting with are Philly fans and everyone knows that there is no bigger group of degenerates. They consider it an insult to be asked to think or use rational thought, so fuck ’em all.

    You are a good man, even if you are confused about who to root for. 😉

  4. Ignorance runs rampid on the internet. I respect you so much for the way you handled the situation. My husband would have probably ended up in jail.

  5. Well, I guess we now know what Glenn Beck does in his spare time.

    If you ever decide to raise your hand to MJ promise me you’ll record that too! That’s one ass whooping I need to see, lmao!! Just think how much weight you’d lose with your jaw wired shut.

  6. Don’t let those ignorant/malicious 5% get you down. They wouldn’t know a fact if it came up and smacked them in the head. (If it did, they’d probably claim it was a trick by the devil to dissuade them.) You know the facts of your situation better than anyone. Better then those of us with working minds and reading comprehension and definitely better than mindless trolls who have nothing better to do all day but accost decent people. You don’t need to justify any decision you make (one way or the other) to anyone. That said, if 95% of people (including people who are pro-life) agree with you, let their voices drown out the 5% that is made up of trolls and idiots.

    Oh and I’d second what @JEE said about recording it should you ever decide to raise your hand to MJ. I’d only add that you should have a third party hold the camera. You wouldn’t want it to get damaged when you get knocked on your rear! 😉

  7. I said it then and I will say it again, you sir are better person than I. I lost my head just reading this post. People who can only see their perspective on an issue are close minded, ignorant, selfish, delusional assholes. But to have the nerve to actually write you and tell you, that you and MJ killed your child is ridiculous! I have seen a family member carry a baby to term that had no chance of survival. I watched her pray everyday for her “miracle” to then see my uncle carry his baby in a tiny coffin to her place of peace. That baby survived a few hours and slowly, painfully died. So don’t tell me to simply pray for an answer. You dothe best you can for what is right for your life.

    Still applauding you,

  8. I am so sorry. First, I thought that somewhere in the bible it states for us NOT to judge others. I love when anti-abortion people hide behind religion to try to force their beliefs on others. Second,no government or religious organization should be allowed to force a woman to bear a child.

    I am so sorry that you had to go through this. The thought of losing a child that you want breaks my heart. I commend you and your wife for making the very difficult decision out of compassion for your child.

    I am sorry for your loss.

  9. Angry McScreamy,lol. It sounds like a greys anatomy character. the whole time i was reading this, i was picturing these rednecks in overalls and trucker hats wrinting angry letters, while opening beer cans with their single tooth. Do these people not realize that without kidneys, people don’t live? These people are such idiots that it’s funny.
    Your loss,however,is the most unfunny thing in the world. I’m so sorry you had to experience it:(

  10. Oh, and my favorite quote from your video is “i’ve seen pictures of people holding up severed heads of featuses,cause that’s really effective”. Why,pray,are there not more guys like you? If Will ends up anything like his father, i call dibs on him for my niece 🙂

  11. Are you fucking KIDDING me?! What the fucking fuck just happened here?!
    Clearly you take the trolls much better than I do. I just threw my own fucking phone and these aren’t even my trolls but Christ on a fucking bicycle are you KIDDING me?! What kind of ignorant jack fuck comes up with this shit?! YOU beat MJ?! Please, no offense but my moneys on MJ. You should have prayed for a miracle?! Are you fucking kidding me?! I think my head is going to explode. I need a xanax. And a menthol. I’ll be back…..

  12. Sometimes I hate people. How are people able to show such a lack of compassion for other people?? I don’t get it.

  13. I’m a pro-choice clinic escort. These are the people who confront clinic clients & their support persons every day of every week with their hateful messages, both verbal & on signs & pamphlets. These are also the people who elect the representatives & senators who are now eliminating funding for Planned Parenthood & whose real agenda is to make abortion illegal again. My sincere condolences for your & MJ’s loss & appreciate your standing up for all of us.

  14. I’m reminded now why Dooce put all of her hate mail on a separate page with ads and then donated all the money from it to charity.

    Perhaps that’s an idea?

    Hang in there. Honestly, it really doesn’t matter what anyone thinks about your situation. They’re attacking from their own fears. They’re attacking because they can’t relate and it scares the shit out of them to think they can.

  15. You did the right thing then; you’re doing the right thing now. Admirable. Completely admirable. Best wishes and good luck for the future.

  16. you’re incredible. it hurts my feelings that people cannot recognize that.

  17. I don’t think I could handle the comments you shared above. You are a much better person than I am.

    Those who say you should pray for a miracle don’t understand that their deity, whom they believe controls all, already made its decision in this pregnancy (based on their belief system, not mine). Oh, wait, their deity only does good, not evil.

    I don’t post often. But in one or two previous posts, I have said and still believe that you and MJ made the most ethical and kind decision possible for Alex. I believe that with all my heart. You and MJ made a necessary and difficult decision with Alex’s best interests in heart. You made the decision that was best for your family. Alex was part of your family.

    Those trolls haven’t had to make such a decision. They are ignorant and cruel. Some of them get off on this kind of cruelty. Which makes them all the sicker.

    And yes, I fully believe that MJ would successfully kick your ass!

  18. So one of my goals is to finish reading the bible before I die. When it came to certain topics I had expectation of what the Bible would say. Funny thing is, it doesn’t say abortion is wrong. In Exodus 21: 22-25 it says:

    And if men struggle with each other and strike a woman with child so that she has a miscarriage, yet there is no [further] injury, he shall surely be fined as the woman’s husband may demand of him; and he shall pay as the judges decide. But if there is any [further] injury, then you shall appoint as a penalty life for life, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, burn for burn, wound for wound, bruise for bruise.

    Everyone knows the eye for an eye part. Everyone does not seem to know that in the Bible, the act of abortion is treated more as a property crime.

    In the end though people want to say it’s either right or wrong. I like to turn to another Biblical phrase that everyone knows as well…’Judge not, lest ye be judged…”

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  20. I know this is an old post, but I only just came across your blog after reading an article you wrote for the Huffington Post. I’ve been reading nonstop since. When I saw this video, I thought it was terrific that you stood up for your wife and other women in the same situation. I had to laugh when one of those letters said you were “screaming like a lunatic” because I thought you handled yourself beautifully.

    You and your wife had to make an incredibly diffcult decision that nobody should have to make. I can’t even imagine the trauma you guys went threw between losing the baby and then having to deal with these women basically emotionally assaulting your wife on, as you said, on the worst day of her life. It is none of their business and they should not be doing this. They don’t even know what the women are going through or why. They just make assumptions and push someone who is grieving already to the point of hysteria. And, I’m sorry, but praying isn’t going to make everything all better. You did the right thing, especially with dealing with these women. Thank you for that and good luck to you and wife, I’m sure your great parents.

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